I don’t usually open up about my personal and love life but I thought today I would. Tomorrow is Valentine’s Day, a Day for Lovers. Well to me it’s just another day. Last year though I thought maybe I was heading in the right direction for once in my life. I thought I had found the perfect man, I just had to get him to see it. But it was not to be, he already had someone to love him and love back. And boy was he PERFECT! I saw us going to Disney together wearing our Minnie and Mickey ears, holding hands walking down Main Street USA, kissing in front of Cinderella’s Castle and taking a horse drawn carriage ride around Port Orleans. I saw us taking sunset walks on the beach in the Outer Banks and smiling arm in arm in front of the Lighthouse in Corolla. I saw us spending a romantic weekend in Savannah, enjoying dinner for two by the stream in Gatlinburg, and showing him the Badlands. I saw me coming home from work and cooking dinner for him. But my hopes and dreams faded away and my prince charming feel off his white horse. And now here I sit waiting for my real Prince Charming to gallup up on his white horse.
Two weeks ago an Anniversary passed without a passing glance. It was not a Wedding Anniversary or a Dating Anniversary or even a Work Anniversary. It was the Anniversary of the death of someone I loved. My Aunt and friend. I can’t believe it has been nine years now since she left us. So much has changed in those 9 years. She has 2 granddaughters now and a grandson on the way. She has two wonderful daughter-in-laws. I see her smile every time I look at the four year old’s smile. Every time the eleven year old does something to make us laugh I know my Aunt would have just eaten it up. She’s her step-granddaughter but she would not have let that four letter world change the way she felt about her. The girls going to Disney for the first time together would have been the icing on the cake for my Aunt. It brought a tear to my eye. I miss her everyday but the pain in less then that day in October 2004.